Counting BlessingsThe 17th Day in our 25 Days of Christmas Play
is one full of emotions. Today Little Guy had an outpatient surgical procedure and he and I spent the day in the hospital. It was very emotional going through the process of registration, dressing him in his little panda covered gown, talking with anesthesiologists/surgeons/nurse practitioners, carrying his little koala bear body wrapped around me down the long hallway into the OR, into the BRIGHT white room filled with all kinds of medical staff covered head to toe in their gauzy sterile clothing, and holding his little hand as his long eye lashes sloooowly closed...and then the waiting and waiting and more waiting. And the recovery, trying to wake him up while his floppy little 3 year old body resisted...and more waiting. It was a long, long day...all from the side of the worried senseless mommy. I am used to being on the scrubs side of this world.
And sometime during all of this, there was chatter among the other moms and dads and grammas and pap paps and worried, pacing adults...of a shooting. It felt like a hit to my gut. I literally felt sick to my empty stomach.
It is impossible to understand how anyone could fathom the steps to consider the senseless tragedy that happened today. I keep thinking of the moms and dads who do not have their babies to tuck into their beds tonight.
So when we came home it was an evening of snuggles and kisses. Counting blessings. I have been praying hard today. For Little Guy, for his doctors, for his guardian angel, for God to hold my hand after I let go of my baby's...and then, for all of the mommies and daddies with a new hole in their hearts, for all of the sisters and brothers and families who can not and will not ever understand.
Tonight I am thankful for every runny nose, every wet pants accident, every mess, every sleepless night, every time I have a screaming baby who doesn't want that stranger to hold her more than mommy...
Every day is one full of blessings. Enjoy every single one of them every single day.
My heart and prayers are with the victims and families of Newtown, Connecticut.